What is your passion? Throughout the years people have constantly asked me this question and I always had trouble answering it. What was my passion? Did I have passion for anything besides the love of my family, pets and friends? This question always made me doubt myself, made me feel stuck, and uncertain until recently.
Who would have thought that at forty years old I would finally find my passion. I love to write and express how I am feeling. Thinking back, I guess I always have. I use to keep journals, write and collect poetry. When I would write, I never felt pressure, it was a way to express myself and let my rarely seen creative side show through. Starting this blog, ignited my passion. Creating a blog was something I have wanted to do for a long time, but to be honest, I was scared. Scared of what people would think, what if they didn’t like me, what if they didn’t like my content, my pictures, my opinions. But I knew in order to create something I felt good about and was proud of I had to push my fears aside, and allow myself to be vulnerable, open and honest. This is exactly what I did. I opened up myself to the world. Not only through my posts but also through the pictures I posted on Instagram. I was proud to share my experiences, my thoughts, my troubles, my life, in hopes that someone out there could relate to me and would enjoy following along with me on this journey.
Creating my blog has been a whole new learning experience for me. I will be honest, I never loved school, I loved the social aspect of it but it always seemed like something I “had” to do rather then something I “wanted” to do. I was never eager to get to class and learn. Now, at forty years old, I can’t learn enough. I am a sponge, soaking up all the knowledge I can about how to make my blog successful, following my favorite bloggers, using them as mentors and inspiration. I have signed up for online classes, I have listened to books, I have asked questions, LOTS of questions, I have networked, I have listened to podcasts, watched You Tube videos, doing whatever I can to learn more, to help me improve, to increase my knowledge about the industry, to help me become a successful blogger. Doing all of this has been exciting and I realized it has helped fill up an empty space inside of me.
I never realized the passion I had for this until I fully engaged myself in it. I love learning how to perfect photos, creating content, designing a new website and re-branding it to fit more of my personality. Creating this blog has been a blessing for me. I have met so many new people who inspire me everyday. It has allowed me to express myself and have the confidence to do it. It has awakened a part of me, a part that I had buried a long time ago.
Do you have a passion that you have not been fulfilling? One maybe you have pushed to the side because let’s face it, life is messy, busy and who has time to explore their passion? Take a moment to ask yourself “What is your passion?” Sit with it, meditate on it, pray about it, allow yourself to take the time to reflect on it. You never know where your passion may take you.
Thank you to my husband for giving me the space to write and create. For not being annoyed when I spend hours on my phone researching and learning. Your love is one of my biggest inspirations. Thank you to everyone I have reached out to, who have answered my questions, helped me with my website (a new site is coming) and recommended classes and books. And thank you to everyone that follows along with me on this journey, the readers, the Instagram followers. I feel your love, and I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Photographs taken by Laura Beekmann Photography & Film